Mum-of-seven Constance Hall has been praised for opening up about the harsh reality of being a mum.
The Australian blogger took to Facebook to share a photo of herself with tears in her eyes. Alongside the emotional snap, the mum opened up about reaching her breaking point.
The mum said she feared she wasn’t strong enough for the perfect parents of the Internet but continued to get honest about her struggles in the thought-provoking post.
“I woke up this morning and burst into tears. Raja is not sleeping. I can’t breast feed him anymore because he has chewed my nipples to the point of them bleeding and for weeks I’ve been calling out in pain when he does.
“So now he sits on my face, hitting my head, crying at me, pulling my hair, yanks at my nose ring, I put him in his cot and he stands there screaming until I cave. I give him a bottle, he drinks them for Denim but never if I am around.
The mum continued: “And then the sun comes up. And I look out the window to the sound track of Raja crying and I know I have another shit day ahead of me.. trying not to fall asleep at the wheel.
“If I’m lucky I’ll have 10 minutes to check my messages, someone says she hates the colour of my hair, someone else asks me if I’ve gained weight and someone else tells me they think one of my kids has autism.
“I took on too much Raja was little, I just let him feed all night so I could sleep and wake up and work and look after all these f**king kids and be the “supermum” that everyone expected me to be.
“When I had the twins I had to leave them to cry, they were up all night, every half an hour, I had no choice but to control cry them or lose my mind completely. They were 8 months old. Cried through 3 shitty nights and have slept like angels ever since,” she added.
“Of course people on facebook linked me studies to prove I was f**king them up long term, giving them anxiety, proving to them that they cannot rely on me, but I saw I had no choice. I was on the verge, a shell of my former self.
“And the twins are my easiest kids. They are caring and kind, they sleep, they love everyone, including me even after I subjected them to such an ordeal.
“But I missed that boat with Raja. Parental guilt made me feel I didn’t have the right with only one baby. He’s now nearly one and will not give up on feeding throughout his sleep.
“So this morning I sat up, knowing that my husband was just wanting for me to take him so that he could get some sleep. I looked at Raja. I looked at my husband and instead of doing what I do every day, grabbing the baby, changing his nappy. Packing everyone’s lunches, making 6 breakfasts… I cried.
“I’m too tired. Everything and everyone can f**k off. I have run myself a bath and I’m back in bed. Yes Denim has probably put the wrong sandwiches in the wrong school bags and everyone will probably be late for school and feeling a bit weird that I’m not the one doing it. But f**k it. I’ve reached my limit.
“The most underrated, underpaid and undervalued job in the world is that of a mum.
“I personally think you are all doing an amazing job. I value you and if I could I’d pay you, give you sick days, responsible hours and some f**king sleep,” she concluded.
There’s no doubt this post will resonate with so many mums.