In light of Baby Loss Awareness Week, Made in Chelsea star, Binky Felstead has decided to open up about the heartbreaking miscarriage which she suffered just six weeks ago.
Binky has kept her devastating loss quiet and private from the public, until last night when she shared an open and honest Instagram post about her experience.
“I’ve thought long and hard about doing this post, but I felt that if I can pass on any warmth, comfort or help to anybody in the same position - well that would be great. It’s only fair that I share some of my ‘downs’ as well as my ‘up’ moments,” the 30-year-old mum wrote.
“Today would have been my 18 week mark, but sadly we had an early miscarriage just before 12 weeks. Not only was this heartbreaking for us, but it also came as such a shock to me.”
“I hadn’t realised until then how blessed I was with having such a relatively straightforward pregnancy with India - I’ll admit I was naive enough to assume the next one would be as straightforward,” Binky confessed, referring to her three-year-old daughter, India, whom she shares with ex, Josh Patterson.
The former reality star then went on to explain that she had two early scans due to concerns she was bleeding. “They found a ‘very strong’ heartbeat. However, on the third scan I was told ‘I’m afraid there’s no heartbeat’.”
“I was told by my doctor that 1 in 4 pregnancies miscarry (not that statistics make it any easier!) With 82% of my following being women - that means roughly 237,800 women “following” me could (or have) experienced the same, which is just so sad.”
“When speaking to a few close friends about our situation, we learned that some of them too have had miscarriages in the past. I asked them why they’ve never said anything, and they just said they felt they couldn't, or shouldn’t talk about it.”
“Almost like it’s a taboo subject, which is heartbreaking. If you have been through this, I hope you are giving yourself time to mentally and physically heal and do what you need.”
“I keep reminding myself that there was nothing I could have done, and perhaps this was nature’s way of saying that for whatever reason, this little soul wasn’t ready for the world. Sending so, so much love.”
“I later learned that @miscarriageassociation is available to help anyone who has/is experiencing this. It’s a national charity that provides support and information for anyone who’s affected by miscarriage or ectopic pregnancy, this includes both women and men.”
“You can call their helpline or talk to them on live chat or even message them on Instagram, and they will do whatever they can to help you through.”