Easter madness
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Well, The choc filled day has come to an end in my apartment! Toddler now sleeping (thank the lord!)
I'm not one to usually give my little girl a lot of chocolate. Today was an exception. Which felt at times like a living nightmare. BUT, I loved it. Even though my toddler (near 3 year old girl) was high on a sugar rush and was rushing round like race car. I love, love loved it! Don't get me wrong, i didn't purely like the sugar rush but i loved my child even more.
It's the strangest feeling lately that i have, every morning i nearly crumble with how i love her more and more. I could eat her up like she devoured the choccie bunny that had no hope of getting away from her today.
I'm now currently sitting here, laptop on my lap. Hot mug of tea and i borrowed :) some of my little girls easter treats. First bit of choccie i've had today!
I'm currently trying to set up some writing and insight into the struggles, giggles and everyday life of a single mother with a young child. I find I'm not one to talk a lot to people and i've always loved writing. I find i can type away and get a point across or explain a struggle better than i can explain it in words.
I'm also going through a big move backwards to live with my dad! And wanting to write a childrens book! I'm not one to do things by half!
I would like an audience of people with similar struggles as me to say your not alone. I went through PND and extreme stress and worry but one day i stopped myself in my tracks and just said to myself i had to stop! I was unneccesarily doing it all to myself and in reality it wasn't needed because as most things, it turned out ok.
From day one of having my little girl i've been 100% doing it alone. I went from being full time employed with lots of freedom to being a mammy to a beautiful girl and unemployed and feeling quite trapped! I'm itching to work again! I'd love to write because that's easily done by computer. Maybe one day my dream will come true! But going back to me suffering from PND. I was too proud to let on anything was wrong. I was sleep deprived, unable to do anything on my own and just not feeling myself at all. Crying at everything and swinging moods. It all eventually broke me down on my sisters hen night of all days! I was her only bridesmaid so as you know the brides maid organises things. But in the mind set i was in i just completely lost the plot and locked everyone out of my apartment and wouldn't talk to anyone! I then admitted defeat that week and went to my GP. Still i'm alone 100% with her but i've learned to adapt a few things so things are a lot better.
I realised too i was missing out on a lot of things my daughter was doing. So now everyday we hug, kiss, give eskimo kisses have fun and put the worries and stress to one side. She's my happy pill now. It's true laughing and having fun helps get you out of depression. Now i won't lie but there is odd days here and there that i feel a little black cloud hanging there but no where near as bad as i used to be.
I could go on all night but i'll leave it here, my choccie is calling me ;)
I'm not one to usually give my little girl a lot of chocolate. Today was an exception. Which felt at times like a living nightmare. BUT, I loved it. Even though my toddler (near 3 year old girl) was high on a sugar rush and was rushing round like race car. I love, love loved it! Don't get me wrong, i didn't purely like the sugar rush but i loved my child even more.
It's the strangest feeling lately that i have, every morning i nearly crumble with how i love her more and more. I could eat her up like she devoured the choccie bunny that had no hope of getting away from her today.
I'm now currently sitting here, laptop on my lap. Hot mug of tea and i borrowed :) some of my little girls easter treats. First bit of choccie i've had today!
I'm currently trying to set up some writing and insight into the struggles, giggles and everyday life of a single mother with a young child. I find I'm not one to talk a lot to people and i've always loved writing. I find i can type away and get a point across or explain a struggle better than i can explain it in words.
I'm also going through a big move backwards to live with my dad! And wanting to write a childrens book! I'm not one to do things by half!
I would like an audience of people with similar struggles as me to say your not alone. I went through PND and extreme stress and worry but one day i stopped myself in my tracks and just said to myself i had to stop! I was unneccesarily doing it all to myself and in reality it wasn't needed because as most things, it turned out ok.
From day one of having my little girl i've been 100% doing it alone. I went from being full time employed with lots of freedom to being a mammy to a beautiful girl and unemployed and feeling quite trapped! I'm itching to work again! I'd love to write because that's easily done by computer. Maybe one day my dream will come true! But going back to me suffering from PND. I was too proud to let on anything was wrong. I was sleep deprived, unable to do anything on my own and just not feeling myself at all. Crying at everything and swinging moods. It all eventually broke me down on my sisters hen night of all days! I was her only bridesmaid so as you know the brides maid organises things. But in the mind set i was in i just completely lost the plot and locked everyone out of my apartment and wouldn't talk to anyone! I then admitted defeat that week and went to my GP. Still i'm alone 100% with her but i've learned to adapt a few things so things are a lot better.
I realised too i was missing out on a lot of things my daughter was doing. So now everyday we hug, kiss, give eskimo kisses have fun and put the worries and stress to one side. She's my happy pill now. It's true laughing and having fun helps get you out of depression. Now i won't lie but there is odd days here and there that i feel a little black cloud hanging there but no where near as bad as i used to be.
I could go on all night but i'll leave it here, my choccie is calling me ;)
