The time has come...
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You know that sinking feeling you get, the one on a Monday night after a lovely long weekend when you know you have to get up for work in the morning? Yeah I'm sure alot of you have that heaviness in your chest at the thoughts of it on this bright Easter Monday. Well imagine that after 13 glorious months off work!
So I took the extended unpaid maternity leave and then some. I just couldn't bring myself to leave my beautiful little angel. We were having so much fun; we'd cuddle up on the couch & watch cartoons every morning. Every second day was a PJ day and I got to see all the exciting little firsts, rolls, crawls, steps and even words now. So when the time came I said adios to my job & stayed at home. Being honest the job wasn't really compatible with family life anyways or so I justified it to myself.
I wouldn't have it any other way but alas with an impending wedding to save for (not to mention a rake of ones to attend) this one income household couldn't keep up. Tomorrow is the big day and I am absolutely petrified. I am sure my little one has no idea why I held her that little bit longer before putting her down to sleep but I really feel that it's the end of an era.
Tomorrow I will be packing her up & carting her off to the childminders, who is thankfully her Auntie. She'll go to playgroup with her cousins (21 months & 3 years) and will probably have a ball and not even notice the change! Meanwhile I imagine myself running off to the loo for a cry every half hour or so and fretting over wether she's had her nap or her lunch. I wonder what I'll talk about with my new work colleagues, will they be interested in the adventures of Peppa or Baby Jake? Will my brain even work anymore... I mean I forgot the pin of my laser a few weeks ago, a card I use multiple times a week! The information just fell out of my brain and I had to order a new pin, by rights I should probably have an "Out of Order" sign emblazoned on my forehead!
I guess we'll find out tomorrow, life has to go on & Mommys got to bring home the bacon! Wish me luck and I'll report back on my first day tomorrow
So I took the extended unpaid maternity leave and then some. I just couldn't bring myself to leave my beautiful little angel. We were having so much fun; we'd cuddle up on the couch & watch cartoons every morning. Every second day was a PJ day and I got to see all the exciting little firsts, rolls, crawls, steps and even words now. So when the time came I said adios to my job & stayed at home. Being honest the job wasn't really compatible with family life anyways or so I justified it to myself.
I wouldn't have it any other way but alas with an impending wedding to save for (not to mention a rake of ones to attend) this one income household couldn't keep up. Tomorrow is the big day and I am absolutely petrified. I am sure my little one has no idea why I held her that little bit longer before putting her down to sleep but I really feel that it's the end of an era.
Tomorrow I will be packing her up & carting her off to the childminders, who is thankfully her Auntie. She'll go to playgroup with her cousins (21 months & 3 years) and will probably have a ball and not even notice the change! Meanwhile I imagine myself running off to the loo for a cry every half hour or so and fretting over wether she's had her nap or her lunch. I wonder what I'll talk about with my new work colleagues, will they be interested in the adventures of Peppa or Baby Jake? Will my brain even work anymore... I mean I forgot the pin of my laser a few weeks ago, a card I use multiple times a week! The information just fell out of my brain and I had to order a new pin, by rights I should probably have an "Out of Order" sign emblazoned on my forehead!
I guess we'll find out tomorrow, life has to go on & Mommys got to bring home the bacon! Wish me luck and I'll report back on my first day tomorrow
