Those who have experienced a miscarriage know all too well the devastating pain and grief it brings.
28-year-old Shelly Mettling was distraught after her first pregnancy ended in miscarriage.
She had dreamed of being a mum and now it had been taken away from her.
The fitness coach summed up her feelings in an emotive Instagram post writing: “UGH”.
Alongside a candid snap of herself and her husband Matt, Shelly wrote: “Today is a bit different . . . as we lay here losing something we prayed so damn hard for I can't help but be angry, emotional, sad, confused, and frustrated”.
However, even in the midst of such heartbreak, Shelly says she’s still counting her blessings.
The Last 72 Hours... UGH <-- realistically the only word that truly describes the Emotions! 2 weeks ago We found out we were growing our Family to 3... We were Excited, Nervous, and Extremely Grateful! Today is a bit different...As We lay here losing something we prayed so damn hard for I can't help but be Angry, Emotional, Sad, Confused, and Frustrated! But the one Feeling I am holding onto from 2 weeks prior... GRATEFUL! I'm grateful that I got to Feel (even for a short time) the power of Motherhood! I'm grateful that I got to Experience the bond that a woman feels the instant she finds out she is growing a little human in her belly! I'm grateful I got to Feel the Love I was capable of feeling/giving to someone that I had never even met! I'm grateful for the Fact that God Gave me this Experience to test my strength! I'm Grateful for the Family and Friends that have been checking in on me and lifting me up when I've been So Knocked down it's hard to visualize standing again! I'm grateful I have a platform to share my story to help others who have made room in their own hearts for someone special they too never got to meet! I'm grateful for the mindset I've been working on daily the past 2 years and the fact that through all this Pain I'm able to still see that there is purpose in all this madness! I'm Sad, I'm Heartbroken, I'm torn to pieces But I'm Grateful! Because... "A Grateful Heart is a magnet for miracles" and Life still has a lot of those in store for me! #ForeverInMyHeart #AlwaysGrateful #miscarriage #Blessed
"I'm grateful that I got to feel (even for a short time) the power of motherhood!
"I'm grateful that I got to experience the bond that a woman feels the instant she finds out she is growing a little human in her belly, “she said.
"I'm grateful I got to feel the love I was capable of feeling/giving to someone that I had never even met! I'm grateful for the fact that God gave me this experience to test my strength!
“I'm grateful for the family and friends that have been checking in on me and lifting me up when I've been so knocked down it's hard to visualize standing again!"
The brave young woman added that she is "sad, heartbroken, [and] torn to pieces," by the loss but is trying to stay positive.
Despite this, there are still painful reminders of what might have been everywhere she goes.
"You've Lost your Baby" The hard part is over, right? WRONG! I'm about to get Raw & Real... not because I feel comfortable to but because I think it's important for All the Other Woman (the 1/4) to hear. We've endured one of the most Emotionally and Sometimes Physically painful thing we could ever Endure as a Female and although it's "Over" it's NEVER REALLY Over! Now... We scroll our Facebooks where it seems to be that EVERY other Couple has a Mom & Dad Coffee Mug with little booties in between... INSERT KNIFE TO THE HERE We Go on a Walk to clear our Minds only to see a Mom walking with her New Born Baby in the adorable little stroller we pinned to our Pinterest board just a few weeks prior... INSERT KNIFE TO THE HERE We Turn on the TV to Watch our Fav Show "Friends" to only see it's the one where Rachel Gets Pregnant... INSERT KNIFE TO THEHERE We Receive a package in the Mail with the T shirt we were going to use to So Excitedly Announce our Pregnancy to the World...INSERT KNIFE TO THE HERE We get invited to a Baby Shower that just so Happens to be the day we had our first Ultrasound scheduled to hear the heartbeat of our Baby that we Now have to call and Cancel... INSERT KNIFE TO THE HERE and On Top of it all... WE FEEL Ashamed For Feeling angry at all the Happiness & Love that Surrounds us from the things listed above! It's Not Over! It will Never be Over! We will always carry this Pain! and we will always feel Powerless about the situation that occurred! And although we can't control What Happened we can control how we handle it! Personally I plan on handling it with Purpose... Sharing my story Being public about my feelings Digging into the Real & Raw Emotions Why??? I HAVE NO IDEA HONESTLY lol Maybe it's a Coping Mechanism or Maybe it's my Destiny but I can't help but imagine that something EXTREMELY POWERFUL can come out of Something that Feels So EXTREMELY POWERLESS! #AngelBaby #ForeverInOurHeart #MommyToBe #futuremommy
“We scroll our Facebooks where it seems to be that EVERY other couple has a Mom and Dad coffee mug with little booties in between… INSERT KNIFE TO THE HEART HERE.
“We go on a walk to clear our minds only to see a mom walking with her newborn baby in the adorable little stroller we pinned to our Pinterest board just a few weeks prior… INSERT KNIFE TO THE HEART HERE.
“We turn on the TV to watch our favourite show Friends to only see it’s the one where Rachel gets pregnant… INSERT KNIFE TO THE HEART HERE”.
Shelly hopes that by sharing her experience with her followers on social media she can help others going through the same loss.
“I’m grateful I have a platform to share my story to help others who have made room in their own hearts for someone special they too never got to meet,” she wrote.
Our hearts go out to Shelly and Matt, we hope they receive support from their family and friends at this difficult time.