I always thought as a stay-at-home mum, this wouldn’t happen to me

Last updated: 08/06/2015 12:03 by EimearKelly to EimearKelly's Blog
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When our son was born in July 2011 it was such an amazing day. It was the day that my husband and I became a family. Since his birth I’ve always been grateful that I savoured every moment as best I could and I still do. Now nearly four years on I’d love nothing more than to press stop, hit rewind and play it all again.
 
This August my son will be starting Montessori and while I’m looking forward to the three hours each day of one-on-one with his little sister, I’m afraid of how quickly the time has passed. I’ve watched family and friends who have older children and I’ve seen how quickly they’ve grown. I watch them now as they go to school and think that will be my little boy soon, except he’s not so little anymore.
 
I always thought as a stay-at-home mum, this wouldn’t happen to me; that it wouldn’t happen so quickly, but it has! Now as I watch him as he plays outside with the ‘kids,’ as he says, I see how big he has grown. He has become my independent boy and it seems now as the days pass, he needs me less and less.
 
When we visited the school last year I was looking forward to the day he would begin. It will be great for him to have time out without his mammy and more importantly, to socialise with children his own age. Now as we wait for summer to hopefully start I can’t help but think that this is it. This is the summer where my little boy is going to change. From here on in as he plays outside (weather permitting!!) with his pals, he will grow all the more and not just out of his clothes! While I really am looking forward to seeing him as he develops I’m afraid too of what I’m losing. My little boy seems to be slipping away and there is nothing I can do about it. I now have to give up the control I thought I had.  
 
It really does feel like yesterday that we brought him home and now all of a sudden it’s his last summer before he starts school. Once I walk him to school that first day, he will enter a new world and a lot of it won’t include me! He’s going to make new friends and on our walks home he will tell me stories of what he did for the day.
 
While I may be losing my little boy, in ways I feel like it’s a new beginning for us both and our family. We’re all growing and it’s time for me to insert a new disc to record the next chapter!
 
Eimear Kelly has worked in hospitality and recruitment but considers becoming a stay-at-home mum to her two children, Logan and Elise, her best career move. Becoming a mum has inspired her to believe in herself and follow her dreams. You can read more from Eimear on her blog Chirps from a Little Red Hen.
 
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